Ravenclaw
ravenclaw
Nel
it's complicated
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pansexual
6th Year 17 years old
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Post by Lucy Anne Weasley on Aug 1, 2019 16:18:30 GMTlucy anne weasley Picture yourself in a boat on a river 
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[/PTab={background-color:#f0f0f0;width:530px;height:290px;padding:10px;padding-top:0px;margin-top:-6px;}] [PTab=BIOGRAPHY] Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly, the middle There’s something enviable about the finality of a story. There’s a beginning, a middle, and an end, and everyone has a place to start and finish, predetermined and purposeful. The people in stories have their fates set out for them. You spent so much of your life devouring stories and loving them because you always had a sense that they were meant to be. And you - you very much don’t have this. And it’s fine, you think, as you get older, because the journey can be fun too, and you assume at some point you’re going to figure out along the way what it all means. But when you lack a direction, a purpose or a sense of meaning to where you need to go - you can’t help but wonder when you read those stories….it would be a whole lot easier, wouldn’t it? To go through it all with some sense of knowing what you want? You’re often feel like you’re surrounded by people who know what they want. Your dad has always known what he wanted, even if he might have made mistakes on the route to get there - the fact of the matter was that he knew what he enjoyed, he knew what he didn’t, and he found his place to achieve that. You don’t understand it, and you know that could never have been a purpose that you shared with him because crunching numbers has never given you the same kind of contented aura it seems to give your dad - but you understand what it means to him, so you feel like you do get it in a way. He had his arc, and he’s ended up where he needed and wanted to be. The whole time you’ve known Linus he has known where he’s going. It’s the thing you envy most about Slytherins in general, their sense of direction and the drive to get there, and Linus Longbottom has it in spades. It’s attractive really, because you don’t understand it but you very desperately want it and feel warm in its glow. You have to wonder errantly, in those few days before it all went downhill - are you just there because you’re hoping he’ll drag you along with him and you’ll find purpose by his side? Is that what was the draw of hanging on? You don’t know, because he was all you’d known at that point - and you were happy, of course you were happy because he was perfect, but you, Lucy Weasley, had never been sure of anything, so how could you be sure of this? Were you allowing yourself to go down a path because you were presently and passively happy or did you know you wanted it? And it isn’t just jobs or careers, that isn’t it, because you know people who don’t know where they’re going so specifically, but still feel so completely themselves that whatever path they take it will definitely be their path and the journey they were meant to take, whether they’re conscious of it or not. You think of your cousin, Dominique who has never doubted a step she’s taken in her life, and of your sister, who is so herself it’s like looking at the sun when you’re around her. It’s not just confidence though, it’s the sense of self. You wish you just knew stuff about yourself like that - like that at least would have things make more sense, right? You’d understand where you stood at the beginning of your journey at least, even if you didn’t know exactly where you were going to go. You spend a lot of time trying to ground yourself. Being with other people, or being as close to the earth as you can get, out and about and breathing, centring. It helps, but it’s yet to bring you knowledge. You suppose, that’s the closest you’ve got to understanding yourself yet, that desire and pursuit of understanding itself, all represented in the blue and bronze you wear every day. And it’s not that you’re not happy, or even that you’re sad, or that you can’t find joy, but there’s something that you can’t help but stop and think about, wondering if you just go through the motions of it all without knowing if all of that is what you actually want. Where you want to go, Lucy? What’s the end goal? Who are you, Lucy? What are you doing? What do you want, Lucy? You still don’t know what being Lucy Weasley means yet. You have to hope you find out soon. [/PTab={background-color:#f0f0f0;width:530px;height:290px;padding:10px;padding-top:0px;margin-top:-6px;}] [PTab=PLAYER] A girl with kaleidoscope eyes.
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